sometimes if you are lucky
you find a home in a boy.
he holds the fire in your heart
he makes you laugh
he protects you
you trust him
you fall in love
& then one day
he leaves
without warning.
now your home
is burning down
all of your past feelings
come crashing down
all you have known
the safety is gone.
at night
I still dream of him
this time we get things
in this imperfect world
right for once.
we heal our attachment
styles & we build a new home
this time with extra safety,
and protection just in case
we lose it all again.